THANKFUL FRIDAY AND A BIT OF BUSINESS

First of all, my COVID test came back negative and we are all breathing a big giant sigh of relief. I will say that I did not make good use of my time off. I did some cleaning and I mowed the yard, but mostly I sat on my bed, locked in my bedroom watching hours of Gossip Girl. I didn’t watch this series when it first aired and I have to say that it is positively terrible. But I’m addicted. I’m only near the end of season two of this six season series, but they have already used every cliched story line in the book. Most of them are all in the lines of teenage boy has an affair with an older woman, one of those older women was their teacher. It’s stupid and the perfect thoughtless television to be watching while quarantined. Particularly when you lack motivation for anything thought provoking. I also avoided all news and only took minor glances at social media.

Though, I am not thankful for feeling like crap for half of that time or stressing about the possibility of having COVID and passing it on to those around me, I am grateful for the time off to do nothing. The truth is, I haven’t been feeling like participating in day to day things for a couple of weeks. I was feeling run down and brain fried well before coming down with some sinus funk. I started falling back into some old patterns like meal tracking and calorie counting, things I do when I’m feeling bad about myself. I had gotten out of the habit of routinely using my Neti pot and with an allergy season sprinkled with poor air quality, it is no surprise to me that my sinus cavity finally revolted. This is my loop. I never allow myself down time and it takes an actual illness for me to give myself permission to slow down. I’d like to tell you that I’m learning and maybe I have learned. Maybe I’m just stubbornly obstinate.

Stubbornly Obstinate is my new band name.

Now for some business. I might have mentioned that I would bring Yoga in a Tiny Space back to Zoom in September. That plan is going to be put on hold for an indefinite amount of time because I have a new teaching gig. I want to see how this new schedule plays out before I decide if I want to add to that plate. I also have something scheduled for every weekend in September. Taking my Zoom yoga class off the schedule makes room for some personal time. Personal time that I would like to fill with more trash TV.

I mean inward self reflection.