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WHEN I'M SIXTY FOUR

Cindy Maddera

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I’m still working on rewriting that Life List. An idea will hit me and I will furiously write it down. Then the list will sit for weeks, sort of forgotten, mostly ignored. Recently, I have been thinking how that Life List should be more of a Retirement List. Though, I expect I will be much older than sixty four when retirement happens. Last week, I was talking to one of the ladies in histology and she told me that she was retiring in January and moving to Florida. I wouldn’t dare guess about her age, but she said that she had been in research science for more than thirty five years now and it was time. She still seems youngish to me and this made me realize that I too might still be youngish when I finally retire. I mean, Sir Paul McCartney is seventy eight years old and he just released a new album. During a Pandemic! Michael read me a post from someone he knows on Facebook. This person was wishing their sister a happy fortieth and something about her life was now half over. I said “How are you living your life that you’re only going to live to eighty?!?!” Micheal’s response was “You expect to live longer than that?!?”

Well…yeah…I do expect to live longer than that. That is why I need a game plan.

I have some ideas. The early years of retirement involve an RV that will also accommodate storage for our scooters. By then, Michael will have dumped his giant scooter in favor of a more reasonably sized Vespa. Both of our Vespas will fit nicely in the toy hauler Class C Motorhome that I have already picked out for us. We’re going to travel the country and one way of funding our adventures will be our December job as Mr and Mrs. Santa Claus. We will supplement the rest of our income with Michael teaching some online math classes and me teaching some RV park yoga classes. On nice days, we will explore what ever town or area we are in on our scooters. Rainy days will be spent relaxing at the campground. I will be warm during the winter months and a comfortable temperature in the summer months. During the Fall months, we will be in whatever part of the country that has the most spectacular Fall leaves. Probably Vermont.

Eventually though, the RV lifestyle is going to be unpractical and our bodies will need something more stable. I have a plan for this. Okay, so you know those road side motels that are made up of small tiny cottages? Like the kind you see on Route 66 or something? I’m going to buy one of those, preferably one in a temperate climate area and close enough to a hospital. One cottage will be reserved for a licensed geriatric nurse. The other cottages are up for grabs and will be our personal living spaces. The main office area will be converted into a communal living room with a giant kitchen. We will have an on duty chef, but with also the option of cooking our meals or potluck meals. There will be a pool and pickle ball court because I hear that pickle ball is all the rage with the geriatrics. There will be activities and volunteer opportunities and maybe a community vegetable garden. We’ll form our own Rock-n-Roll choir like the one featured on CBS Sunday Morning. I’m basically just creating my own retirement village. My very own version of The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel. Except I hope to fill my village up with my friends.

It will be great.

THE ECO CHALLENGE IS NOT MAKING THE LIST

Cindy Maddera

Chris and I were still living in that weird house apartment in Chickasha when we discovered the Eco Challenge. We were instantly hooked and watched it every year as long as it was aired on TV. Over the years, we became attached to various team members. We had our favorites that would return every year and if one didn’t show up we would worry about them. We were captivated by their stories and the reasons for doing this grueling challenge. One year, we rooted for Team Couch Potato, an American team made up of four out of shape and inexperienced racers. They had all watched previous races and just decided to give it a try. We cheered every time they made a check point minutes before the cutoff time. In 2000, the race was in Borneo. That race ended up being the most brutal of races. We cried as we watched as some of our favorite racers had to give up due to injuries and I roared as Robyn Benincasa led her team to victory that year.

I sat on the couch and cried my way through the entire Fiji 2019 race on Sunday. Amazon has re-booted the Eco Challenge with Bear Grylls as the host. There were new teams and new stories, but some of the old teams were back too. Those were the stories that reached into my heart and squeezed the hardest. Many of those older racers where now doing this race with their grown children and the pride and joy in the voices of the older racers as they talked about how much it means to them to be back and doing this race with their kids, filled me up. The story of Mark Macy and his son wrecked me. Mark Macy has been adventure racing his entire life. We watched him race in Australia, Argentina, and the wretched Borneo race. Mark Macy had planned to run Fiji 2019 with the same group he’d done all of those other races with, but a year before the race, he was diagnosed with Alzheimers. Mark’s son had planned to run the race on his own team, but after his dad’s diagnosis, they decided to do the race together. It was awe inspiring but brutal. Alzheimers not only takes away memory. It also messes with balance and even a tight rope walker would have struggled with their balance in this environment. There came a moment during the race when they had to decide to call it. Watching Mark Macy struggle with the decision to quit was gut wrenching. He looked at the camera and said “If I’m not adventure racing, I don’t know who I am.” Just typing that brought me to tears.

Every year when Chris and I would watch the Eco Challenge, we would talk about what it would be like to do that race. Could we get ourselves in shape enough to complete the Eco Challenge? I mean, we couldn’t do any worse than Team Couch Potato. As I watched the Fiji race, I found myself contemplating that same question once again. That evening, Michael and I went on a short bike ride. I struggled to keep up with him and I kept reminding myself that our bikes are different. His was made for speed. Mine was made for tooling. Still, it was disheartening. Forget the Eco Challenge. I need to get myself fit enough to not struggle on a simple bike ride. I can do that and really, I could probably get myself fit enough for the Eco Challenge. In fact, I want to get myself fit enough for those things, but I don’t actually want to do the challenge. Fiji did a number on those racers’ bodies. Injuries, infections, running on little sleep. Mud so thick, it clogged up mountain bike wheels. One section of the race put everyone in danger of hypothermia. None of that sounds appealing to me. The next Eco Challenge is in Patagonia and the altitude alone is probably going to kill some people.

That’s why the Eco Challenge is not making my Life List. The idea of that kind of torture does not spark any kind of joy. Though, I will tell you that number 23 is ‘slow dance with Andrew Bird’. So I better start training now for that one.

100 THINGS

Cindy Maddera

I have a confession. I really like the new Taylor Swift album. This may surprise some people; I tend to be slightly snobby about musicians. If you were to tell me last year that I would be willingly listening to Taylor Swift, I would have laughed in your face and told you to shut up. Except I have been listening to her latest album on loop for days. It might have something to do with her collaboration with the National and if you know anything about me, you know I love me some National. I want to kiss Matt Berninger on the mouth. In fact I was thinking about that during my last yoga practice and what a great life list item that would make. This led to thoughts about a Life List. Remember when we all made Life Lists all those years ago? It was hole thing set off by Maggie Mason and we all jumped on the band wagon of living our lives to the fullest. For a while we did just that. It almost became a game of what we could mark off our list.

I still vividly remember sitting on Misti’s couch with a mug of coffee in my hands while Talaura and Misti put together a program for Chris’s memorial service. Misti asked about sharing Chris’s Life List and my throat became clogged with emotion. All I could do was was shake my head ‘no’ while tears dripped into my coffee. I couldn’t handle it. His list had become a list of things we would never get to do. I abandoned my own list soon after Chris’s death. Our lists were unintentionally intertwined in a way that I didn’t want to do anything on my own list with out him. Looking at his or my own life list was looking at all of the things we didn’t get a chance to do and it was really really painful. Like being stabbed with a million needles. So I let my list flutter away into the ether. The shine of the idea of the Life List wore off for many of us and the blogging community stopped talking about it.

Then I was thinking of ole Matt up there and started pondering the possibility of a new Life List. I have twenty two things on the list so far. ‘Kiss Matt Berninger on the mouth’ is number four on the list. Number two on the list is a list of heads of hair I want to run my fingers through, like Jim James and Eddie Vedder (even though he’s cut all of his hair off). I want to try acid and mushrooms, but not at the same time. I want to jump rope on the The Great Wall of China and actually see a real live moose. Not every thing so far on the list has been ridiculous. I have thoughts on a photography project that I want to start called In His Shoes where I wear J’s old combat boots in different places. I’d like to put together some different playlists, like how we used to do mixtapes (my music is a total mess). I want to create a yoga event in my neighborhood. Actually, that one might be a little ridiculous, but I think the bottom line is that I want to do stuff. Being cooped up for months will do that to you.

I am taking my time in creating this list though. More time than I spent on the last one. I feel like I was in some kind of hurry to write that first list. Then I struggled to come up with one hundred things that I wanted to do without ending up with a list of chores. I only want things on this list that spark joy. I want silly and playful. I want a bit of danger and adventure, but I also want this list to remain solely mine. That means I may never share it or only share bits of it at a time. I learned from the last list that friends are helpful when it comes to accomplishing things. I mean, a water balloon fight with yourself just seems sad. What’s the point of tasting a sour orange if there’s no one there to see the look on your face when you do it? Where’s the fun in silly and ridiculous if it isn’t shared?

Now, I’m off to look into bounce house rentals.

ADDING TO THE MUSEUM LIST

Cindy Maddera

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I visited TWO museums while I was in Atlanta, adding to #61 on the Life List. The first one we visited was the Jimmy Carter Library and Museum. I totally geeked out over this one. Jimmy Carter is one of my all time favorites. He's my birth year President (meaning he was elected in 1976, the year I was born). He's just the loveliest man. His life and story fills me with hope and inspiration. He's the Mr Roger's of Presidents.

So excited about this
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I'm in the Oval Office!

Chad and I had made it into the middle of the museum when one of the attendants came around the corner and said "hey! you guys want to meet the President?". We were not the only people in that museum, but that guy made a beeline right for us (again with the magnet). I think my heart may have stopped beating. The attendant told us that if we hurried, we could see President Carter in the cafeteria. So Chad and I took off towards the cafeteria. Chad was changing out lenses on his camera as we ran and I was trying to figure out how I was not going to ugly cry all over President Carter. But when we burst (and I mean burst) through the cafeteria doors all we found was a table of regular senior citizens and couple of secret service people. We'd just missed him. But....WE WERE IN THE SAME BUILDING AT THE SAME TIME!!!

The second museum was the Michael C. Carlos Museum which is full of wonderful Greek and Egyptian antiquities. What I really liked about this museum was it's size. It's tiny, but full of greatness. It contains just enough.

Magnified Face
Ceasar

And this picture, because I am mature.

Classy

I feel like I should say more about the Michael C. Carlos, but all I can say is that it should be on everyones must see list. Except go on a day when they are not using lots of varnish some where in the building. Or do...it may enhance the experience.

LIFE LIST #42, CHECK

Cindy Maddera

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I've been fed up with my hair for months. When I got home from New York, I made mom measure my pony tail. It was at 8 inches, enough for the Pantene's Beautiful Lengths. Misti and I started planning and it was decided that I would come down Labor Day weekend and she would chop all my hair off. And that's what we did.

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You know that scene in 16 Candles when Caroline's friend cuts Caroline's hair to get her out the door she's stuck in? Caroline heaves this huge sigh of relief when the last bit is cut and she's free from the door. That's exactly how I felt when Misti cut off that pony tail. One of Misti's co-workers was standing there as I described this and she said "so, you were stuck in a door". Yes, that's it exactly. I was stuck in a door. And then I started crying. Not because I had just chopped off all my hair, but because I was finally beginning to recognize myself.

That night most of the gang showed up to visit in Misti's backyard. My friend Jen exclaimed "It's old Cindy!" as she hugged my neck. God, it feels good to be back to my short hair.

New Hair 2

LIFE LIST #33, LEARN TO MAKE GRAVY

Cindy Maddera

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I used this Thanksgiving Holiday as an excuse to cross off something from the Life List. It was time to learn to make gravy. Step one: Throw in one Southern mom. I mean, come on. The South practically bleeds gravy.

Mom

Step two: Melt a half a stick of butter.

Half a Stick of Butter

Step three: While butter is melting, whisk together 2 cups veggie broth and 4 tablespoons of flour. Be sure to mash out and lumps.

2 cups veggie broth, 4 T flour
Smash out lumps

Step four: Saute onions and celery in melted butter until onion is translucent.

Onion and celery

Step five: Add a chopped boiled egg to broth mixture and then pour mixture into pan with butter, onions and celery.

Boiled Egg
Add

Step six: Stir until it thickens.

Stir until thick

Salt and pepper to taste and pour over everything. Enjoy!

MUSEUM #8, THE USS MIDWAY

Cindy Maddera

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I took advantage of getting to San Diego almost a day early for BlogHer to add a museum to my #61 of my Life List. I easily persuaded Kizz along for ride because she has "see 100 museums" on her Life List too. So, after a lunch of yummy swordfish tacos, we made our way to the USS Midway, where we were chastised for calling the flight deck "upstairs" by two volunteer veterans.

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If you ever get to San Diego, you should visit the Midway. It's fun. It's educational. There's all kinds of knobs you can try to turn (none of them work, I tried). But wear sunscreen. For the love of God, wear sunscreen.

MY TWO LEFT FEET

Cindy Maddera

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Today I tackled #9 on the Life List: Take a Zumba class. I put it on the list because it just looked like silly fun and it totally was. There were times I had to come to a complete stop in order to laugh properly at myself. I am not completely without coordination. I used to rock the shit out of step class. I have thirteen years of dance and even had a short run at cheer leading. But when it comes to literally shaking my tush? Well, let's just say I don't quite have those skills. I was a little concerned about my stamina. I have heard that this is a really intense workout that involves lots of sweating. Even though I walk every day, I imagined myself gasping and falling all over the place in this class. I may not have been able to keep up with the tushy-shaking, but I sure held my own in the cardio aspect of the class. And it was fun. Did I look like a goofy white girl? You betcha. But I was no better or worse than anyone else in the class.

I will go back to Zumba class and I will work on the tush shake. Chris has already told me that he would help me study Shakira videos in order to work on my technique.

LIFE LIST #61, 100 NEW MUSEUMS

Cindy Maddera

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Saturday called for rain and drizzle all day, so Chris and I thought this would be the perfect time to visit the Nelson-Atkins Museum of Art (museum #7). The morning was as predicted, overcast and cool, and we arrived at the museum just as it was opening. Right now, the special exhibit is Monet's Water Lilies. All three. Together. AT ONE TIME. Some of you may not know, but this is a rare event. One of these paintings usually resides in St. Louis and the other is from a private collection. The Nelson-Atkins claims the third. I wasn't quite prepared for it when I rounded the corner and saw all three of these paintings together the way they were meant to be seen. My breath caught in my throat and I got a little teary. The exhibit is set up well, with loungey couches to sit on and just be and look to hearts content. We got there early enough to avoid a crowd and have the paintings mostly to ourselves. One of the things I like about Monet's work is that it's meant to be viewed from a distance. When you look up close, all you see are the brush strokes and the smears. Up close the colors are pretty, but it's when you step back from the painting that image actually takes shape. This holds true for even his small paintings.

This close to a Monet And he sticks out his tongue

We sort of lost momentum after seeing the Water Lilies. We wandered through the photography exhibit and to a few other rooms, but we were in no rush to see the whole museum because the Nelson-Atkins Museum is free. Yeah, you heard me. FREE! I see many, many visits in our near future. I see picnics in the sculpture gardens in the Summer and Fall and long strolls through the halls on cold, blistery Winter days. It's a good image.

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GARDEN DIARIES

Cindy Maddera

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Exciting news everyone! The radishes have bloomed! I had no idea they even did that. Actually, I know very little about radishes and because we were curious about their progress, I dug one up. They're not ready. But they sure are pretty to look at.

Radish blooms

I am starting to think of gardening as my church. Every Sunday, I slip on my garden shoes, pull on the gardening gloves, grab my camera and garden tools and step out into my garden. The circular pattern of the garden becomes my meditation labyrinth as I start in one quadrant and work my way all the way around, back to start. The only part I don't like (this is my communion) is the part where I pick the green worms off my broccoli and kale. They make a popping sound as I smush them and their guts are bright green. I hate them.

Future Tomato Fennel

The carrots are taller. The squash is bigger. The chard is just popping up out of the ground. There's even a wild strawberry vine that has found it's way into the garden. We are happy.

Wild Strawberry

SOUL SEARCHING

Cindy Maddera

It's been well over a year since I made my Life List and since then, I've crossed off seven things. Seems a bit sad. Truth is, I've forgotten what exactly I've put on that list. So, I thought it was time to go through and do some editing. It was good to just sit down and remind myself that I have plans. As I scanned through that list, I realized that those plans I have are not all that unreasonable. There's no reason why I shouldn't be crossing some of this off, but there were a few things that I just know I'm not going to do. Number five became "travel in France" as opposed to "live like a native in France". Let's be realistic. I'm not sure how my life is ever going to get to place where I can up and move to another country (this being said after I've just upped and moved to another state). I also know that I'm never going to be in a play (#38). I am the type that will help you run lines and cheer you on from the audience, but being on stage makes me physically ill. Instead, I will zip line through a jungle or forest any day. Number 46 used to be "try 52 new recipes". Easy enough, in fact it's so easy that I think I've actually accomplished this. I just never kept track of it. So I cut it from the list and replaced it with "jump rope on the Great Wall of China". This is an idea that came to me when Kizz was traveling to China. It sounds fantastic! Also, #59 (run a marathon) had to go. I hate running. I just don't like it. Why would I put something I just don't like to do on my list? I think I replaced it with something very fitting. And finally, #69 - back up all my photos, got hacked from the list because that's a chore. Not fun. It's a thing I should do, not a thing I want to do. It's now "grow mushrooms".

I need to figure out a way to keep better track of things that I do on and for the list. I'm sure I've tasted several new wines, but I never stop to write any of it down. Number 61 (100 new museums) is a bit easier because I take pictures, but until today I couldn't tell you what number I was on. If I'm not careful, these will end up falling to the way side. I bet there's an app out there for managing your Life List. Maybe I need to get it.

Any way. This week? I make some plastic yarn. Momma needs a new rug.

LIFE LIST #61

Cindy Maddera

I keep meaning to go in edit my Life List. There are changes that need to be made. Things added, things deleted, and at least one thing crossed off the list. But I am continuing on my quest to visit 100 New Museums. Even though it's not actually called a museum, I'm including The Hallmark Visitor Center as one of the 100. Hallmark History

It's a small little museum tucked inside the Hallmark Center, but it's full of cards and memorabilia and little TVs playing sappy greeting card commercials.

Wall of cards

You can talk to an artist and watch a machine stamp together some cards.

Learning From a Pro

But the best thing? The bow maker.

Bow Maker!

It will make you a perfect tiny red bow. For you to keep. Free. Which makes it even better.

GARDEN DIARIES

Cindy Maddera

Does any one know what possums eat? Do they eat gardens? Do I need to worry about this? Are they rabid? Hooper and I saw one of the possums last night slinking around the house. I'm hoping this doesn't become a problem, but they do kind of freak me the fuck out just a bit. What with their beady little eyes and rat tails. It doesn't look like they've been gnawing on anything out there, but maybe their waiting for when things get ripe. Possums. Blerg. Future Salad

Other then that the garden is puttering along nicely. Things are growing taller. I've added some more onions (since a gazillion come in the starter bundle). I added a few more mixed salad greens. And now we wait. The weed pulling has begun. The problem is, some of the weeds are still young and they seem to be popping up in the same areas as where I planted seeds. The weeds get to stay until I figure out if they're edible.

Squash...I think

Onions

Next weekend we fill in the fourth quadrant of our circle with tomatoes and peppers and maybe start mixing in some herbs here and there.

GARDEN 2011

Cindy Maddera

We didn't plan on doing a vegetable garden this year. The plan was to invest very little in the place we are renting now. We aren't even going to put things up on the walls or unpack Knicks-knacks. We've unpacked the things we really need and the rest has gone down to the basement. The previous owners had a small above-ground pool that, once hauled away, left behind a circle of bare earth. It was kind of like this place was begging us to plant some seeds or something. So we did. Today we built a make shift fence around the perimeter. We put some stakes in the ground and wrapped some twine around them, keeping them in place with some staples.

Stakes

We split the circle into four sections and laid down some seeds. We planted spinach, kale, broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, radishes, salad greens, fennel, squash, basil, cucumbers, parsley and onions. I left some space for some actual tomato plants to come later.

Onions!

Turned into a much bigger garden then expected. Chris calls me the haphazard gardner. I kind of just tossed seeds around. My theory is that nature does it just about the same way. We did all this only to realize that there is not water faucet in the backyard. Now we must purchase a garden hose that will reach around from the front of the house to the back.

CHANGE AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE JINGLY KIND

Cindy Maddera

Today I quit my job. I have never quit a job before. I've been laid off. I've been in a lab that's shut down. But I've never left a job on a voluntary basis. Until today. Remember that interview thingy I was talking about earlier? Well, they offered me the job and with out hesitation, I accepted. And I just now glanced over at today's Italian phrase for the day which says "Che progetti ha, what's your plans?". Appropriate no? After the shock and flipping out stage, I came out of my savasana this morning with a lightness I haven't felt in a really long time. And yes, I know this will be hard and confusing and stressful because we have a very short time to find a place to live, pack and move. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention. The new job is in Kansas City MO. This is were we can mark number 3 off the life list. Despite all that moving and starting over stress, I am happy. Very, very, very happy. I feel like this was the easiest decision to make. I think that since it was so easy to say yes to this job that every thing else will just fall into place.

So, that's that. Big crazy changes headed this way. I bet you could see this grin from space.

GARDEN DIARIES

Cindy Maddera

Today, I went out to the garden with all intent and purpose to pull the Christmas bean plant out of the garden. We had had our little taste of beans early in the season only to have the plant peter out. Then it came back with gusto. For months now it's been this growing green mass producing nothing but a few flowers and I was fed up. The plant was too big for the climbing structure we had provided. It was leaning over the chard. It was just a mess. Bean Monster

So I marched out there ready to pull it up out of the ground and trash it, but then I saw bean pods. Lots of bean pods. Loads of bean pods. I forgave the Christmas bean plant for it's slowness and let it stay because, people?, it looks like I'm going to get a whole pot of beans. A WHOLE POT! I suppose patience really is a virtue. That and laziness. Chris and I have not been good gardeners lately. We haven't been out there in days, forgetting to water and everything. I felt really guilty when I went out there today and saw things trying to come up in the dry soil and droopy bell pepper plants.

Thar be beans!

Lots of beans

But, despite our neglect, the garden keeps chugging along. The bell pepper plants keep producing peppers and I think I even saw a carrot top today. Still a little uncertain about this since we planted carrots and radishes together. There are things out there that could be either. My thumb is now officially a very week shade of green.

Forever Bells

Broccoli

FREE MUSEUM DAY!

Cindy Maddera

Talaura sent me a link to all the museums in Oklahoma that were being sponsored for the Smithsonian Free Museum Day and I noticed that The Fred Jones Jr. Museum of Art was on the list. I keep saying that I want to go there and I've heard really good things about it, but there's always a reason not to go. This time, I had no excuse. Plus it's much easier to drag Chris to these things when it's FREE! The museum itself is relatively small, but what it lacks for in size it makes up for with some impressive names in art. They have several Renoir's along with the usual listing of French Impressionists such as Degas, Van Gogh and Picasso. Actual, we were able to see a Van Gogh that had never before been on display for public viewing. A private donor recently loaned it to the museum. It is one of his earlier pieces, a nice portrait of his nurse maid. The only thing I didn't like about the museum was how impossible they made it for me to not want to touch things. The French Impressionist wing is set up as if you were walking through someones home. So, along with the art, there's all this brick-a-brack and furniture and some of the paintings you can walk right up to and put your nose against them. They probably realize the temptation they've set up by putting the paintings on display in this way because they keep you well attended. The security guards were ever present and watching, but they also made good tour guides.

My favorite collection though had to be the State Department Collection which included the O'Keefe and the ones by Morris. The O'Keefe may have been small, but it made me hunger for more. I think we need to plan a trip to Santa Fe soon.

Fred Jones Jr Museum of Art

Cow eating cowboy

More Lke it

Cold Face

LIFE LIST #77: FEED THE LAURAKEETS

Cindy Maddera

Several years ago, some friends of ours was telling us about feeding the laurakeets at the OKC Zoo. You buy a cup of nectar and go into the atrium of little birds and they perch on your shoulder while you feed them. I thought that this sounded wonderful. So Chris and I went to the zoo to feed the laurakeets. As we approached the atrium, I could see the people inside feeding the birds. One woman in particular was covered with laurakeets. They were in her hair, picking at her sunglasses, on her arms; she was covered. Visions of The Birds swarmed in my head and I came to a complete halt with Chris still tugging on my hand and me saying "no,no, No, NO, NOOOOOOOO...". We did not feed the laurakeets. When I sat down to write my Life List, I put this on the list not just because it was something I wanted to do, but because I knew that I'd have to get over my fear to do it. Actually, I think there are a lot of things on mine and others Life Lists that are things we have to over come some sort of fear to do. Feeding the laurakeets seems like a pretty small fear to over come, but so does singing on stage. The thing is over coming the small fears is all practice for the big ones.

Saturday, I fed the laurakeets. And it was amazing.

Bird on my shoulder

Kiss

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100 THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE

Cindy Maddera

Have I mentioned just how hard completing this list was? It was hard. At one point I found myself listing things that I should do as opposed to what I wanted to do and I had to start all over. But I finished the list. I'm sure this isn't the final list and that this one will be edited or changed over time. I've already started on some of these. I just need to get my act together and start posting pictures and such and keeping track of things. Basically, I need to get organized.

    1. Snorkel the Great Barrier Reef 2. Grow my own veggies 3. Move out of the state I'm currently residing in 4. Learn to really use my camera 5. Travel around France 6. Learn to speak a foreign language fluently (preferably French, see #5) 7. Visit all 50 states (States I've been in: Arkansas, Missouri, Texas, New Mexico, Colorado, Hawaii, Kansas, Nebraska, Mississippi, North Carolina, Nevada, California, Oregon, Washington Sate, Tennessee, Illinois, Alabama, Georgia, New York) 8. Learn to scuba dive 9. Take a Zumba class 10. Learn Ashtanga yoga 11. Hike parts of the Oregon trail 12. Learn to surf 13. Go snow skiing at least once 14. Go on a cross country trip on the scooter 15. Go kayaking with whales 16. Learn to make cheese 17. Get my bicycle fixed and ride! 18. Travel on Route 66 (a section I haven't been on before) 19. Visit Yosemite 20. Taste 100 new wines 21. Learn acupuncture 22. Raise some chickens 23. Have a Beach Blanket Bingo themed party 24. Buy a (good) swimsuit 25. Learn to drive a standard 26. Take a small engine repair class and learn how to work on my own scooter 27. Read the Bhagavad Gita all the way through 28. Memorize the Yoga Sutras 29. Visit Yellowstone 30. Visit Mt. Rushmore 31. Ride elephants in Thailand 32. Camp on a beach (real beach, not lake beach) 33. Learn to make gravy 34. Tour the Grecian islands 35. Take my mom to Ireland 36. Buy and refurbish an old 50s styled camper 37. Go hang gliding 38. Zip line through a jungle or forest 39. Sing on stage 40. Host a really great dinner party 41. Learn how to make tofu 42. Grow my hair out really long and then chop it off for charity 43. Design a Threadless shirt 44. Learn how to can my vegetables 45. Learn to make pickles 46. Jump rope on The Great Wall of China 47. Create my own perfect space in my home, just for me 48. Learn to play poker 49. Be in New Orleans on Halloween 50. Learn to fly an airplane 51. Make "yarn" from plastic bags and knit a rug 52. Learn to swing dance 53. Go on a trip with my best friend Steph, just the two of us. 54. Learn to throw pots on a wheel 55. Learn to make really good Indian food 56. Take a train trip across Alaska 57. Go sailing 58. Master that yoga move where you flip from boat back to plank 59. Visit a "coffee" house in Amsterdam 60. Do trapeze 61. Visit 100 new museums (new to me)[13 down, 89 to go] 62. Fast for Ramadan 63. Refurbish a VW Bus ( to pull the camper) 64. Go on safari 65. Volunteer for Habit for Humanity 66. Buy a new cello and re-teach myself to play 67. Visit and tour a Frank Loyd Write house 68. Volunteer at the elephant sanctuary 69. Grow mushrooms 70. Invent something new like a new drink or dessert 71. Ride my bicycle all over town 72. Ride in a hot air balloon 73. Ride in a helicopter 74. Ride burrows down into the Grand Canyon 75. Practice yoga in India 76. Learn Tai Chi 77. Feed the parakeets at the zoo 78. Bake a really good cake 79. See one of Chris's screenplays come to life on the big screen 80. Buy a sexy cocktail dress 81. Complete a year of meditation journal 82. Fly one of those really big kites 83. Make seashell necklaces for all of my friends and family 84. See a Greek Tragedy in a Greek theater 85. Host a yoga retreat 86. Tour Italy on the scooter 87. Go to that crawfish festival in Louisiana 88. Enter the oyster eating contest at the Acme Oyster House in New Orleans 89. Refinish a piece of furniture 90. Learn to change the oil in our car 91. Be at the Statue of Liberty on the 4th of July 92. Learn to make a really good vegetarian Pho 93. Have a water balloon fight 94. Go swimming with sharks 95. Make a photo book of 100 things I love 96. Go to one of those perfume places in France and create my own perfume 97. Research my family history 98. Learn to tango 99. Master a headstand (no wall!) 100. Learn to make vegan donuts

Of course, I don't plan on doing these things alone. Chris groaned over numbers 12, 21, 37, 52, 78, 79, 52, and 98. Actually, he said that number 79 wasn't fair because it was solely dependent on him. I told him to suck it. So, that's the list. Some times I get a little panicky over all that stuff, that stuff that I want to do. That's a lot of stuff. Guess I better get crackin'.